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mary  x o
20 February 2017 @ 07:15 am

Day one at the new job. Nervous as fuuuuck. It's gonna be ok.

mary  x o
15 February 2017 @ 10:04 pm

It's the last couple shifts at the uni and my emotions are all over the place.

mary  x o
07 February 2017 @ 10:10 am

Things are getting crazy at the uni. One of the vets has a meeting with the CEO's boss to speak about problems within the hospital. The nurses are speaking to the union and will likely go on strike. I can't get out of there quickly enough. It is so toxic.

mary  x o
03 February 2017 @ 09:35 am

Also realised I have cut my fringe too far back. And I want to grow my hair. What do I dooo?

mary  x o
03 February 2017 @ 09:33 am

I am really starting to see the worth of my decision to leave the uni. I actually work with incompetant people. They just hired people to fill the gaps without making sure they are qualified, or have some idea of how busy it is..

And to have them working at the most busiest times, and together?? Recipe for destruction. Luckily I won't be there to see it. They will realise they let the good ones go, and any one left, won't last long.

I am looking toward my future. And I am so excited.

mary  x o
28 January 2017 @ 04:58 pm

Change is good. Resigned from the Uni. Start at ARH in Feb. 2017 is going to be a good year.

mary  x o
17 January 2017 @ 09:29 am

Definitely thinking about a career change. But to what? I don't know.
Might also be moving to the Central Coast, so that will help that decision. An hour and a half to work somewhere that stresses me out or find something closer that I might enjoy?

I hate this feeling.

mary  x o
11 January 2017 @ 06:49 am

I have come to the sound realisation that I don't actually have any friends. Well, I have friends, but we never go out and do things together. We don't go for coffee, or catch a movie, or have dinner or drinks.

I see posts from them and their other lives with other friends and it just makes me very sad. I am happy for them, of course. But sad for me.

Oh bother.

mary  x o
29 December 2016 @ 01:53 pm

Goodbye 2016, hello 2017. What a year you have been.
From finding out my dad has cancer, to living in Canada for a year and growing closer to my partner in crime, I'd say things have been interesting.
Never did I think I would have achieved what I have.
I am almost 30 too, what the hell? That just sounds crazy.
Here's to hoping my dad continues to improve and does not get any worse.
Currently on our way down from Sydney to Ballarat visit my parents and it allows for a lot pf time to reflect.
I want to be more fit and active in 2017.
Come at me.

mary  x o
15 December 2016 @ 08:30 pm
So I got in big trouble at work recently. Almost lost my job and had a promotion taken away from me. I now have to work harder than ever to earn back the trust of my boss.

Ever since I came back to Australia from Canada, I have felt abandoned. All the girls I worked with that I felt close with seemed to have moved on and I didn't quite fit in with them anymore. They have their own little clique and secrets and it makes me feel uneasy. Then they all left, one by one.

We are due to have our reception Christmas party tomorrow but I just feel ill thinking about it. It doesn't feel right to go. They're the reason I almost lost my job, and they've all left now, and it will mostly be a bitch sesh and it's not really me. I am not like that usually.

I feel a bit lost. I don't really know what I want to do with my life. At least work wise. I feel sure I want to be a vet nurse, but at the same time, it feels like I should try and get some more skills. I guess I am only 29, there is so much time still to do everything and anything I want.

I am so happy with how my love life is going though. Having left a troubled relationship and getting married way too young and too quickly was a big mistake but also a huge learning curve. I am so happy that my new relationship has worked out. Daniel is just amazing. He has stood by me through everything and I was worried he wouldn't even want to know me if I told him the truth. He really surprised me there. I know we will have a happy, long life together.

This post has been all over the place, but that is kind of where my head is right now.

I hope to keep this updated more often. My random thoughts, dreams and wishes.. you know haha