So I got in big trouble at work recently. Almost lost my job and had a promotion taken away from me. I now have to work harder than ever to earn back the trust of my boss.
Ever since I came back to Australia from Canada, I have felt abandoned. All the girls I worked with that I felt close with seemed to have moved on and I didn't quite fit in with them anymore. They have their own little clique and secrets and it makes me feel uneasy. Then they all left, one by one.
We are due to have our reception Christmas party tomorrow but I just feel ill thinking about it. It doesn't feel right to go. They're the reason I almost lost my job, and they've all left now, and it will mostly be a bitch sesh and it's not really me. I am not like that usually.
I feel a bit lost. I don't really know what I want to do with my life. At least work wise. I feel sure I want to be a vet nurse, but at the same time, it feels like I should try and get some more skills. I guess I am only 29, there is so much time still to do everything and anything I want.
I am so happy with how my love life is going though. Having left a troubled relationship and getting married way too young and too quickly was a big mistake but also a huge learning curve. I am so happy that my new relationship has worked out. Daniel is just amazing. He has stood by me through everything and I was worried he wouldn't even want to know me if I told him the truth. He really surprised me there. I know we will have a happy, long life together.
This post has been all over the place, but that is kind of where my head is right now.
I hope to keep this updated more often. My random thoughts, dreams and wishes.. you know haha